'state of the blog' blog

i'm coming off the biggest lapse in time in between publishing new posts here since late july (coincidentally when i quit drinking... cuz that equals more time to sit around and be bored and write stuff). i figure now is as good a time as any to reflect on the state of this blog, where it stands now, and where i plan to take it in the future.

first, i should report a brief state of the blogger who writes this blog. hi, i'm josh wells. i went on vacation to austin, tx and just got back yesterday. i didn't write shit while i was on vacation. i didn't plan to either. i figured i'd only be gone for a week so if i didn't feel the need to write, i knew i'd come back home and find myself writing soon.

i also chose to drink while on vacation. so that might've had something to do with it. but honestly, i think it's mostly that i didn't wanna sit around the hotel room writing blogs when there was a whole city i felt like i had to conquer in just a few days.

so that's where i'm at. i was sober for 3 months and 3 days and then went on a 6 day bender. i'm now 1 full day sober and plan to stay this way for some time. i drank a shitload of beer, but never on jersey soil. so i'm still on a roll as far as being sober at home goes.

i'm just throwing the sobriety stuff out there cuz i'm sure it plays a roll somehow in the production of this blog. it also gives you an idea of where my head's at. it felt really awesome to be sober for a little over 3 months. there's a part of me that wishes the streak would've continued. i know in about 9 months i'll think about how i could've went a year sober but didn't cuz of that week in austin. but fuck the regret. i did what i did cuz i was enjoying myself.

when i quit drinking in late july, i wasn't enjoying myself. i was just drinking cuz that's what i did. i fell in a comfortable pattern and realized that i just drank cuz i didn't know how else to pass the time. i felt like that was a pretty weak excuse to drink. so i quit. whenever someone asked me why i'd quit drinking, i'd say, 'i ran out of reasons to drink.' i was drinking without purpose. i wasn't celebrating anything. i was just mindlessly consuming.

but now i'm back in jersey. i'm sober. i just completed my first jog on jersey soil since being back and i feel really fucking good!

it probably also helps that yesterday was kinda a 'blah' day. vacations are great. but that day used to travel back always feels like a disposable day. i woke up and focused all my attention on getting back home which was halfway across the country. i had to fly to accomplish this. i don't like flying. i mean, i like the idea of flying in the sense that it's a quick way to get somewhere far, and for that i am grateful. but i hate being in a plane. i'm too tall to be comfortable and i don't like the idea of being in a metal tube for hours 30,000 feet in the air.

then once i got back, i had to find a way home. getting home from airports is always a minor pain in the ass. it usually involves long rides and traffic. by the time i get home, i'm thinking, "great, i'm finally home and no where near to going back to that awesome place i just was when i woke up today." oh, and my cats decided to throw a party and trash the place while i was away.

vacations are awesome. if there was just some way to wake up that last day and be home already, that would be totally rad.

anyways.....

this blog is gonna be alright people! i know that october only had 15 posts which is the lowest since july. i know that i took an 8 day break since my last post and i didn't even remember what my last post was about till i signed in today (it's about 'stairway to heaven' being overrated. i'm pretty proud of it. you should read it). but i'm back and i'm charged with a lot of ideas for new posts (at least 5, including this one). and by the time i get through those 5, i will probably already have thought about 5 new topics to write about so i look forward to november being blogtastic.

in the meantime, i hope you've taken advantage of this lapse in new posts by catching up on my old shit. i think i'm gonna have a pop quiz on new year's day or something and who ever knows the most about my blog's gonna win a crappy t-shirt. it'll probably be a self serving t-shirt with a less than spectacular phrase on it like, 'i know joshaintfunny.blogpost.com.'

i also have this ebook idea in the back of my head where i collect a bunch of old blogs (starting with stuff from my myspace days), tweets, and other josh related nonsense. so if you don't have a favorite book yet, give me some time, you will.

other than that, spread the word. there's only 2 of you. tweet links and tell your fb friends to read it or else kittens will die (okay, that's mean. kittens are gonna die either way and now i'm just sad).