"but this band will play on...."

despite anyone's best intentions or efforts, things will never go 100% as planned. life will always be strange. things that you thought you could count on will falter and things you never had faith in will catch you when you unexpectedly stumble.

if i look at the past few months of my life, or 2012 so far, all i know is that nothing has been what i thought it was going to be. if i had any thoughts of what the beginning of june would be like when this year first began, it is almost nothing like i would've possibly guessed it to be.

this isn't a bad thing. and it's not necessarily a good thing. it's a life thing. it's a lesson i'm coming to terms with. you can train, practice, read, plan, and study all you want... and you probably should to improve your chances... but all the planning you can muster is never gonna be enough. you'll never be able to see much more than a step in front of you. if you're turning corners you've never turned before, there will be something you've never seen before. you might be ready for it. you might know what's next. but you, i, everyone, we'll never be sure.

this isn't some sorta cop out or excuse to not try to do your best to live your life to the best of your abilities. just because life is unpredictable isn't any reason to say, 'fuck it, why bother.' we should always bother. we should bother our hardest till we die.

life will give us shit. life will take away shit. life will hug us and fuck us, soothe us and cut us. life will deliver inspiring moments that make it so much easier to carry on. and life will deliver crushing blows that will sometimes steer us towards submission.

never give up. i guess that's what i'm trying to say. if shit's not working out and shit's not going your way, it's not supposed to. nothing's guaranteed and life's not fair. but you're not alone. you're not the only one. we all gotta deal with it. life is us doing whatever it is we do amid the whirlwind storm that is this existence. a bad hand is no excuse not to play the game. that's called quitting. you can't quit. none of us can quit.

if you can carry on doing your thing, whatever the fuck that may be, whatever it is you love or puts a smile on your face or feeds your soul.... and you can keep doing it no matter what setbacks you encounter, then you fucking win.